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On the eve of our appointment

Posted by Haisla Tuesday, 9 December 2014 8 comments

I am cautiously excited. I'm trying not to get my hopes up too much, since I know the NHS is a slow train and nothing will be happening in an instant.

What I do, however, expect is a discussion to plan our first IVF cycle and some sort of a timeline.

I think this is probably the closest we have  ever got to having a GPOP (a genuine prospect of pregnancy) since we started our TTC journey three years ago.

In December 2011 I ditched the birth control pill and was genuinely worried that we might get pregnant on our first go (since we were living in a dingy, draughty - but cheap - flat in South East London which was as unsuitable to child rearing as they come). Had I known that three years down the line we are still trying, I would have been horrified.

But so it is. You don't know what you're able to endure until you've been through it. And so we've endured. And in some ways we're in a better place in our marriage than we have been in ages. Somehow this awfulness has brought us closer together. We're a team. We're in this together. And that, surely is worth something in itself.

So happy 3rd TTC anniversary to us!! May this leg of the journey soon come to an end.x