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Posted by Haisla Monday, 1 September 2014

Last night, having just written a blog post about allowing hope in again, I woke up to the worst uterine cramping that I've experienced in a long while.

I'd still been twinging most of the evening in the same spot, but in the dead of the night this twinging turned into an almighty 'contraction'. It literally felt like my uterus was trying to expel whatever might have been trying to implant itself there (even if the 'whatever' had been just a figment of my imagination burrowing itself into that lush lining). And from the silence in my uterus this morning I reckon that my uterus won the battle.

So my wholly unscientific conclusion is that I must suffer from some kind of implantation failure (yes, yes, I am a pro when it comes to self-diagnosis - Dr Google is literally my middle name). If progesterone cannot stop me from rejecting an embryo (I was toying with the hypothesis of luteal phase defect, which I would say has now been disproven) then my next hypothesis is the above. I know, I know, clutching straws here..

There could be two reasons for this though, a) my eggs are crap and cannot produce good quality embryos so my uterus rightfully rejects them b) there is some kind of an immune issue going on here. Either of the two could be caused by my endo..

I am now going to go and google how to treat immunology issues during IVF, just in case. Perhaps if that is the issue I should try to get tested privately before we embark on an NHS funded round of IVF and perhaps if needed could get an immunology treatment added to my NHS funded cycle privately, as in one the side. You know, covering all of one's bases and stuff..

So here is where I stand today. Pretty certain this cycle is a bust, but armed with plans for future attack.

5 comments:

JCH4DCU said...

Keep with the progesterone just in case, Haisla.

I started cramping this cycle around 4DPIUI and was hopeful it was implantation cramping. It wasn't anything like you described though.

11DPIUI = BFN. Not a surprise because I've been feeling the familiar PMS cramping for a few days now.

On to IVF! I wish you tons of luck!

Hope4babyover40 said...

I'm so sorry Haisla, I really hope it's just intense implantation cramps and not evil AF with her bag of tricks again. And your uterus might not have won, or it might just have been moving some furniture around to make room. I so hope so.
Effing hope is dangerous, it gets me regularly! xx

labmonkeyftw said...

Just catching up here, sorry to have been mia for so long. Cramping can go either way, so let Dr. Google have a holiday for a bit! If anything, different feelings are possibly hopeful: if you don't usually have insane cramps at this point, then who knows, it might be something different going on. Good luck with the next few days: I will be keeping fingers crossed for you.

TwoPlusOne said...

Sorry about the cramps Haisla. I don't have any similar experience, so will just keep my fingers crossed for you!

thecommonostrich said...

Oh, dear one... I'm sorry to hear about the cramps. It's so hard to be second guessing every little (or very big) twinge.

Don't give up on hope just yet. Hope is a very good think. Plans for future attack are pretty handy too. Glad that you're not getting bogged down by this cycle!

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